i'm not angry. i'm just disappointed.
but some people take longer than others. and honestly, i'm at peace knowing i've tried. i think i deserved better than that, but you're not the person i knew, and i'm not even sure if she ever even existed.
it's alright though. flor will make me feel better tomorrow. i have someone to snuggle up with on weekends, especially now that it's cold. it always gets better. and i'm happy because i let myself open up and be vulnerable, even while knowing that i was probably going to get rejected. and that's okay. i feel like i'm growing from this, and i'm growing out of this. and that's what matters.