it's just that after that nothing hurts, see??? nothing hurts. it didn't hurt. i can't make it hurt. nothing hurts. you left and i didn't care. you cried and i didn't care. she cried and i didn't even blink. i don't care. i didn't care. how could i care about your pain? i can't feel it. because you couldn't feel mine. how could you ever feel mine. you would throw yourself out your rooftop if you would feel mine but i don't feel it. it's not there. nothing hurts anymore. it hurts too much. maybe it hurts too much. maybe it hurts too much to live but i don't feel it at all, i don't, i don't feel it when they touch me, i don't feel it when they love me, i don't feel it when i tear at myself, i don't feel it, it doesn't hurt it didn't hurt, nothing hurts, when i left it didn't hurt, took a taxi and it didn't hurt, it rained and it stormed and it tumbled and the beer stung and it didn't hurt, just stung, like a slap in the face waking me up, climbing up the staircase, it doesn't hurt, seeing you on the other side of the screen it doesn't hurt it doesn't hurt, do you know what i have felt? oh, how could you. how could you ever. i can't feel it. i can't feel it everything is vague how could it hurt when i know what actual pain feels like? it doesn't hurt like that hurt, i don't feel it
but then i do and it swallows me whole