i hate fighting with my dad
i hate recognizing all the worst features in him
bitterness, pride, self-centeredness
in me
he got mad over a cup
and i screamed
"i have bigger things to think about
than a goddamn cup and so do you
you're living in your dead mother's house"
and i ushered out
a "i wish i had cancer
so you can realize what really matters in life"
it's just
we express it differently, see
he continuously lets you know
that he doesn't want you
that you're not supposed to be there
constantly puts out your mistakes
so when you unleash
he stares at you, puppylike
while you wallow in shame
but it's not like that
at all
you're just passive aggressive
getting worked up over little things
(who does that remind me of)
and i'm the kind that's a rock against the tide
letting the waves beat me and polish me
until i become a hard edge
a knife
(for you to wash ashore on)
i'm sorry i didn't give you a kiss goodbye
but you don't deserve it
i'm so sick of being surrounded by passive aggressive people in my life