"She'll never make you scream like I could" and I was paralyzed but now I'm relieved because yes, you're right, she'll never see me like that, no one will, and you'll always have that part of me remote and vulnerable and brows furrowed, cheeks flushed (was that me) and lips red (gross) and heart out open in the sun (never) and you can keep it because I don't want it and after all this time you still drunk text me and I'm actually glad because it's such a lovely reminder of just how far away I want to be from you