"I think i might be fucking in love with her. I don't know what the fuck to do. I wish you could help me. I mean, like, I could tell she likes me, a lot, like she was itching to kiss me, but was it all in my head? I don't know what to do. I can tell that she really likes or loves her boyfriend, a lot, but why did she come with me to the bathroom? Why did she stand so close? Why does she observe every inch of my skin when we see each other? Out of all the people today, I was the one who helped her the most. I was the one who was rubbing her back, taking the hair out of her face. And maybe if her best friend would've done it, I would've taken it as friendship... but I think we've been denying our feelings all this time. I think she really likes me and I really like her and this time we've been hating each other to hide those emotions from each other. She said sorry today, so did I. I offered her a thousand cigarettes and a thousand smiles, and she excepted them all. What's wrong with me? Am I to love someone in love with another? But the attraction is there, I swear it is. I can see it as clear as my hands in front of me. Though I'm a little drunk, though she was really drunk, I swear it's there and it's always been there and others can't see it because we've always kept it secret. I really don't know what to do. I wish I could ask you for advice. I wish you were here to help me, because I'm so fucking confused right now. All I can think about is her smile and her hair and her lips and how much she wanted to kiss me and how much I wanted to kiss her, as it has always been.
I'm just too late."
I wrote this a few months ago and holy shit was I gay for my best friend you guysPOSTED BY little girl blue ON Saturday, December 20, 2014 @ 9:25 PM
